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Well now in the world of reality.. life fucking sucks. I'm hating my life right now its as if I'm stuck in a cage and forced to fight for survival or I'll get killed... Whatever I do in this dumb house is always wrong wrong wrong... and also religion sucks ass... I hate this...

Today at 3:30 I felt the urg to jump into the living room and just scream at my family while they were watching some stupid tv show... " YOU GUYS HAVE TO FUCKING LISTEN AND LISTEN WELL... I'M FUKING GAY AND YOU CAN'T CHANGE ME... NOT EVEN BUDDAH! I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY CAUSE THATS WHAT I FEEL AND NOTHING CAN CHANGE THAT..::walks away::.."
They are so fucking old fashioned they need to step into 2005...

The other bad part is that noone will fucking understand where I'm coming from and if I do tell them I'd probably be bitched at for the rest of my life. I also don't want to break any hearts (my moms)... shes wicked traditional as well as my sister... I HATE THIS RIGHT NOW ALL i WANA DO IS DIE! AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH